Worth sharing

I've felt guilty recently because my writer's inspiration has been null. I've sat down a number of times to write a post to no avail. It's not that I haven't had things to share. I guess I felt I had nothing profound to say. It's funny to feel that pressure here, on a site that is entirely my own. The pressure to produce something worth sharing.

I had coffee with a friend this morning who, like me, is searching for that professional lightening rod -- that thing/place that would not only make you feel great and motivated, but would also make money.

I left her feeling great and motivated, ready to write, inspired to produce something worth sharing.

That said, it makes me wonder what really is worth sharing? As I try so hard to put myself out there as a "writer" I often wonder if anyone reads what I write. Writing is such a fickle medium, one that allows readers to skim and skip and scan. It's nebulous too. The Internet has allowed any and everyone to become a writer. It seems every third person has a blog these days.

The last couple of weeks I've been dabbling in a new genre, one that scares the hell out of me: young adult fiction. I've never written any fiction. I've actually only taken one creative writing class, and I was horrendously terrible. Like the worst one in the class. I actually got a C. The only other C I ever got was in college algebra, which makes me queasy to recall.

However, I have this story in my head and my heart that I keep dreaming about. I have a character who is taking shape without a lot of effort, and I have managed to write a few clumsy chapters. But I keep asking myself is this shit worth sharing? Would this text get me in front of an interested editor or publisher let alone kids who are perhaps the world's toughest audience?

Ian perpetually teases me about writing the next Harry Potter-type series so we can retired on a sailboat before we're forty. I always say, yeah, yeah. One day I'll write it. But how many people actually sit down and do it? Insert whatever nagging item here . . . how many people actually follow through?

I suppose that is what's so great about this space. I can write whatever I want, I can hit publish, people may or may not read it. The good thing too about writing here is my wheels get turning. Writing begets more writing? I think so.

Who knows if this little character will ever the grace the pages of a real book, but first, I need to believe that her story is worth sharing. I'm working on that.